Merry Christmas!

Well its finally here, and I am thankful that it is here for yet another year. Last night we watched white christmas, drank eggnog, and opened presents. I am happy I'm here with family and friends, Its been a busy few weeks but now its time to sit back and enjoy some Holiday Cheer! I hope you all have a great Christmas and a very Happy New Year!

Christmas!

It's December the season of good cheer, warmth, well wishing, and happiness all around. But I didn't feel much like celebrating, I was home sick ( it being my first Christmas away from my parents), we are struggling a lot and so it was a definite no present year, and due to us moving we couldn't even decorate. Suffice it to say I was more than a little Scroogeish, I didn't feel like it could really be Christmas if we couldn't even have a tree or decorations. I read all the christmas stories I could get my hands on, I listened to christmas music 24 7 trying to get myself in the spirit of the season but I just didn't feel it. Than I sought the only one who truly has the answers, I poured out my heart and all the pain I was feeling. I explained how hard this past year had been for me and at the time when I felt like I should be happy and joyful and having fun I wasn't. I told him how much I missed my family and how much I just wanted to feel like christmas again. Than I heard a small voice in my head and I fell silent listening to the one who I owe everything in this world to. He didn't say anything profound or rebuke me for being so "out" of it he simple asked me a question " What is Christmas to you?". At first I began to name all the things that you do at Christmas but I stopped those were not Christmas, Sure they are fun and great ways to celebrate but they are not Christmas. I stopped and thought for a few moments and than I realized Christmas was his birthday it was the time of year to stop thinking about yourself and instead think about others and give him gifts on his day. I had been so busy focusing on the baubles and trinkets of Christmas that I had forgotten what it was really all about. Present, decorations, even family these things do not make or break Christmas. I'm happy to say I now have the Christmas spirit in full force and it didn't come through all the commercial things but through taking my eyes off myself and looking at one that really is Christmas and should be the only reason we celebrate this holiday. So Happy Birthday to you my love, and Merry Christmas one and all!

P.S. I also wanted to add here just to show you how wonderful he really is he did a miracle and made it possible for me to go up and spend Christmas with my family in NY because that's just the way he rolls!!!

Busyiness!

Well I've been a busy girl, between ballooning, kids, cleaning, cooking and a host of other things. But I am happy I have a lot on my mind but I'm happy sometimes life is like that though its complicated but the complication is good so it makes you happy. Anyway so I got some good news the other day I now have a very good home to move to which takes a lot of stress out of my life. I'm going to stay with my brother till after C'mas so I get sometime to breath and be with family which is very nice. So I'm jsut bust and happy and that's about all that happening in my life. I'm so excited I'm going to have a group to teach again soon, I love teaching ( just in case you guys didn't know that yet).

My life in texas so far...

Well its been officially one week since I arrived in Austin its been great being back with family, its an invigorating and freeing feeling to be back with people who have seen you at your worst and love you regardless. I missed all of the ones here so much and being back with them has been so much fun. I have been facing amajor decision this past week one that has caused me to get very desperate with the lord, there's nothing like a life altering decision to cause you to do some deep soul searching and really looking at your life. I have made a decision about this thing and despite it probable being one of the hardest things I've had to do in my short adult life I have put it in the lords hand and am leaning fully on him. I stepped out on a limb and sawed it off and now I'm free falling. But with it all I am overwhelmed by an overcoming feeling of being loved and cared for and I know without a shadow of a doubt that Jesus is here with me. I wouldn't trade that feeling for anything in the world, My life is completely in the lords hands whatever happens next is completely his choice. But despite basically having no control over what comes next I have never felt this much peace in my heart about anything. Faith and trust are what I will be taking away from this and for nothing else than that I am truly grateful.

On to Texas!

I fly to Austin today wish me luck in all my travels and suchlike I'll post once I get there.

Goodbye Mexico!

Its my last night in Ensenada, and despite it all I will miss it here its a nice little city with beautiful people and it holds some good memories. I will miss my home members, it was a fun six months.
But all's well that ends well and I'm off to another place and another adventure, So adios Ba ha and Hello Texas!

If life came with a guide, if we could see where each turn in our life would take us would we ever do anything?
If we could open our " Life for Dummies" book and see oh this decision will result in this we would always decide against things. Because lets face it almost every decision we make ends up in something unexpected something we didn't plan on. And most of the time along that journey of the decision we made we hit snags, setbacks, and sometimes we even get hurt. If we could peer around the corner and see what was coming up ahead we would constantly be changing directions in search of one we like.
But the beauty of life is not having that guide, its not being able to see whats around the bend. Its learning through experience that snags can be ironed out, setbacks can be overcome, and hurts do mend. Life is a journey it takes time, It has its ups and its downs. We would love for it to always be wonderful but most of the time it isn't but its during the times when things are not wonderful that we learn the most valuable lessons.
So pace yourself enjoy the journey of life rather than sprinting through it as if it were a race. Savor the good times, cherish the ruff times, and never forget the ones you love for they will be there with you through both.

Its come back!

My love, My darling, yes the one I always rely on ( except of course for the lord) has come back to me. It was a long time apart but when it came back to me it was as if we had never been separated I caressed your shiny top and slid my hands over your smooth keys and than my finger went to the power button and you started up I couldn't help but jump for joy. Yes, I know I am weird but I am also over joyed to have my laptop back once again it was a headache trying to get it fixed but now that it is I am overcome with appreciation and love for it.
Now I'll stop gushing over a machine and let you know that I did my fist official night of ballooning and I'm proud to say it went fairly well. I didn't pop any balloons, my balloons did not turn out looking to retarded, and financially it wasn't too bad so all in all I am pretty satisfied. I go again today so please continue to pray for miracles of supply that I can make what I need for my move.

My little loves!

The lord has asked me to give these guys up for a little while, its probable the hardest thing I've had to do so far. I love them so much, I've taken care of them for about four years they have become like my own. I look at them and I see what beautiful kids they've become, I see the baby they were and how they've grown. I see the things they've learned and my heart can't help but ache at the thought of not seeing them anymore, not waking up and saying good morning to them. Not picking them up when they cry and wipe their tears away, not being able to be there on they're bithday and see them laugh and grow and change. But I know that the lord knows best and I am thankful for the many years the lord gave me with them and the times we had together.

My little buggies, I'm going to miss you guys so much!!! Don't forget me and make sure to write me and tell me of all your little happenings I love you guys more than a fat kids loves cake!!! Stay sweet, kisses and hugs!!!!

My life...

I am officially heading up to austin next month on the seventeenth, it scares me to think of moving out on my own but at the same times its exciting cause I know its for the best.

So much has happened to me in the last six months I feel as though I've lived the events of my whole life in this short amount of time. Its been a tough time but its been a growing time, a time of trials and battles but a time of growth and learning. The lord has pulled out all the things in my life that I was holding on to and I found that the only thing I really need is him. I am walking away from the situation I have been in with lessons learned and knowledge gained. I may not ever look back at this time as my happiest time but I will look back on it knowing all that I gained alot from it. I met some very wonderful people and if for no other reason than walking away from this with the friends I have gained it was worth it.

So here's to changes and the excitement and growth they always bring! Here's to good friends who you can carry with you no matter where you end up! Here's to life, the good and the bad times!

Sexiness!

Have you ever watched something when you were younger and thought the actor was so good looking but than you watched a few years later and were disappointed that the person you were magooglising was really not that great looking?
Well when I was younger we watched this series called Dr. Quin and in the there is a man called Sully when I was younger I thought this guy was just the hottest thing since sliced bread he was rugged handsome outdoorsy but at the same sensitive caring and he cleaned up well. Recently I found this series again and found much to my surprise that this sully character was just as hot as ever. It made me happy and I thought I'd share he's beauty with you so you can all revel in it with me and if you ever wanna watcha good series get Dr. Quin its great. Its like a little house on the parie but for adults, love it!!!

My buggies are leaving me!

In about a two week span of time my little buggies are leaving me I feel like a part of me is going to go with them. I love the little munchkins so much they've practically become my own, I've been teaching them for about six years now so its going to be weird with out them. But the lord knows I'm sure he'll bring some other little rascals for me to take care of. Sniffle sob, I'm going to miss them so much though!!!

Craziness!

So life has been pretty crazy, with changes and everything looming ahead I have been under intense amount of stress. But I realized that despite it all when it comes down to it at the end of the day that the outcome is the same whether I spent five hours or five minutes stressing about where I'm going, how I'm going to get there, if I'm making the right choice, etc.
Anyway so I'm not exactly sure where I will end up but its going to be some where and I will be doing something I know these things for sure. Pray that fund raising goes well and that when I get a chance to do some fund raising I can make the money I need to get where I'm going to go wherever that may be in the end.
In other news one of the homes in the area is hosting a Halloween party this weekend so I'm pretty happy I have never been to a adult Halloween party so this should be fun! I am very much dreading dressing up I may be a real bum and not dress up but we'll see how the mood strikes me.
I miss everyone from FDTP like a heck of alot, I still feel werid when I walk in the room in the morning and don't automatically get about twenty hugs but PTL! I'll go back to normal someday I'm sure, well thats all for now love and prayers are with you.

Great song!

This song reminds me of the FDTP every time I hear it I get nostalgic!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB7T3lJ3dZ4

Its done!

Well the FDTP ended about a week and half ago but I stayed in Texas visiting my family so I'm officially home now. FDTP was just amazing truly life changing the classes were powerful, the teachers were amazing, and I miss all the attendess like crazy they were a wonderful bunch of people!
Now I'm back and facing some major decisions, my home is closing so I'm on the look out for a home now. Its kinda scary, but at the same time I know the lord has a plan so it excites me to see where he will lead me.
Send some really powerful prayers upwards that I can raise the funds I need and that I can find the right home to join. Love and smooches!!!

Flying all alone!

Tomorrow I fly out to Texas for the FDTP, and for only the second time in my life I am doing it all on my own. Don't ask me why but flying makes me nervous even when I'm with someone else but when I'm not it makes me even more nervous. I think its because I've watched to many documentaries on planes and plane crashes it just freaks me out. Anyway so yeah I face my fears tomorrow and I fly, wish me luck and keep me in your prayers! Hopefully I won't get a panic attack or anything, :)!

FDTP!

Due to many miracles, prayers, petitions, and some wonderful loving giving people I have been enabled to attend FDTP! I am so excited I will have have and relax and retank on the word and do all those other nice things. I won't be on for a while so don't go and miss me too much, Love and prayers are with you all and I will up date post pics and all those wonderful things as soon as I get back! Wish me luck!

That training course..

Due to my wonderful home voting me into the humble position of manager I have had the privilige of going through the HMTP course and its been wonderful. Its full of wonderful insights and imformation that is helping me to become a better manager and people person. All hail those who put it together its amazing, and a big thanks to peter for recording the audios. I always look forward to my managing devotions its great to sit down and listen to peters soothing voice telling me all manner of good things, I affectionatly call it my time with peter. and thats all I have to say about that.

The latest and greatest!

Well here I am with up dates of my life, I have been a busy little home member busing around and filling in the slots needed to be filled.
Some of the parents went last week to the PMA graduation in vegas so I stayed home and subsitute parented for them. I believe I have found a cure to those femnine urges girls get when they see a baby. I have dubbed it "rent-a-baby" its a service where when a couple or single is thinking of having a baby they rent a baby for a week or so. Believe me at the end of that week if you still want a child than you are meant to be parents and if not well lets just say its probable also the solution to over population. It's pure genious I tell you!
Anyway yes it was a long week, and than came the day I wait for all week WNR and I spent the whole entire day doing nothing but lying in bed sleeping, reading, and eating. It was a well deserved break and I enjoyed it immensly, its been to long since I had one of those days considering the last few WNR's have been filled with moving rooms, cleaning said rooms, and going out with friends.
Oh and my excitement for the month is that do to the love and giving spirit of my felow home members and others I am going to be able to attend the FDTP this month. I am thrilled beyond words, I am also going to spend a week at my brothers home visting all my family who I haven't see in a while! All in all I am a very happy girl!!!
Another thing that is making me very happy is that a smart and very giving person is attempting to fix my way-ward computer for me. I am deeply indepted to him, ( thank you Nick)!
Right now my life is pretty swell I'll let you know if theres any change, love and prayers coming your way!

Were all going to heaven....

( I woke up this morning to Zara urgently calling my name and telling me she has something important to tell me here is what in sued I couldn't stop laughing so I thought I should post it:)
Zara: TIFFANY!!!!
Me: Yes Zara, what is it?
Zara: Did you know that we are all going to heaven.
Me: Yes I know if we ask Jesus in our heart than we can go to heaven.
Zara: Yes and we are going to fly all the way to the sun because that's where god is.
Me: How do you know god is in the sun?
Zara: Because god is like the sun.
Me chuckling: Oh so because god is like the sun the sun is god.
Zara: Yes, and did you know when we go to heaven we are going to leave our ugly clothes behind and god is going to give us a pretty party dress and than we are going to have a big tea party with Jesus cause he likes to be with girls.
Me laughing: Oh he does, and who will be at this tea party?
Zara: Oh everyone, me and Brooke and Carla and Ella and all our friends and maybe even the boys if they want to be with girls.
Me: And what will the boys who don't want to be with girls do?
Zara: Well they will have a boy party with god cause he dosen't like to be with girls.
Me laughing hysterically: How do you know that?
Zara: Because he told me.
I couldn't stop laughing after that, she was in such ernest as if she was sharing the secrets of the world, gotta love them kids!

Carry that Cross!

Complainingly I told myself,
"This cross is too heavy to wear"
And I wondered discontentedly
Why God gave it to me to bear.

And I looked with envy at others
Whose crosses seemed lighter than mine
And wished that I could change my cross
For one of a lighter design.

And then, in a dream, I beheld the cross
I impulsively wanted to wear,
It was fashioned of pearls & diamonds
And gems that were precious & rare.

And when I hung it around my neck
The weight of the jewels & the gold
Was much too heavy & cumbersome
For my small, slender neck to hold--

So I tossed it aside & before my eyes
Was a cross of rose-red flowers
And I said with delight as I put it on,
"This cross I can wear for hours"

For it was so dainty & fragile,
So lovely & light & thin,
But I had forgotten about the thorns
That started to pierce my skin

And then in my dream I saw "my cross,"
Rugged & old & plain,
That clumsy old cross I had looked upon
With discontented disdain--

And at last I knew that God had made
This "special cross for me"
For God in His great wisdom knew
What I before could not see,

That often the loveliest crosses
Are the heaviest crosses to bear,
For only God is wise enough
To choose the cross we can wear

So never complain about your cross
For your cross has been blest
God made it just for you to wear
And remember, God knows best!

Dreams!

Over the course of my life I have had so many built up hopes and dreams some have come to pass some haven't. I always have this idea of how things are going to come out how its all going to go down. But if there is anything that the lord has been drilling into my head this year is that no matter what dreams of visions you have if they are not his plans for you than you have to let them go. I had so many ideas of how my first move was going to go and how it was all going to play out. But ever since arriving each and every idea I had built up in my head has been smashed to smithereens and replaced with his ideas. Its been a humbling experience but its been good its been teaching me to have more faith in the lord and to know that he has a plan and if I would just follow it than I will be happier in the end. Sometimes its hard to let go of the built up plan you have in your head but when I do I find that the plan the lord has for me was much better and end up making me even happier. Things are changing and what once would have scared me as it didn't fit with the "plan" I had in my head is now not so scary because I know its all going to work out because its part of the lords plan and nothing can go wrong when I am following him.

Comfort Zone.

Get out of your comfort zone. You won't know what you're capable of until you try to go beyond what you've done before.

Life!

There are so many aspects that we think make up a perfect life, there's your work life something everyone has got to have to be able to live, than there's your personal life ( keeping up with friends, or a special someone if you have that, cleaning your room etc.), than theres you spiritual life and time with the lord. I have found that keeping up with all of these is just dang hard work and I ahve often found that when I get one aspect taken care of another falls apart ( just walk in my room and you will have proof of this). Anyway I have found that the key to this is just to breath there is no way to have every aspect of your life covered perfectly unless perhaps you have the ausome ability to make time stand still ( i'm working on honing this skill). I just relax and take each day as it comes I try to cover all the bases and do what I can and what I can't I leave be, stressing will rarely help anything. Of course you don't want to just laze around and not do anything but as long as your giving each aspect your best shot than leave the rest be. No one is perfect and no one lives a perfect life but you can live a pretty good one as long as you don't go through life worried about all your missing and instead enjoy what you are doing.
This is my philosify and I'm sticking to it ( that is until I walk in my room and start stressing about the mess but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it).

It's gone!

Well, here's the recent news I went out and cut my hair and for some reason layered in spanish means really short. Here's some pics, its pretty bad but its been really nice in the heat so praise the lord.






In other news I am still computer less and missing it oh so very much, computers are pure evil they make you addicted and than break right at your height of addiction. I shall love my computer so heartily when it returns from its little vacation, perhaps I shall even promise to clean its screen every day.
Other than that I am alive kicking and well, for now at least, you never know what could happen.

The Story Of My Life!

Oh yes, and more bad luck is mine my computer just crashed my wonderful tech savey brother says its the blue screen of death ( whatever that is it sounds terrible). So people are pulling out to do a weekend of fundraising so it means I'll be suck all weekend without a computer, oh yes life just gets better and better! The funny thing is when my brother told me what was wrong and that I would probable lose everything on my computer I just started laughing, I think I snapped or maybe I've just have had this happen to me so many times that I just have learned to handle it really really well. Well cheers to long weekends without computers and the blue screen of death ( I will get back at you for this just wait and see)!

At it again!

Well I'm back at my favorite past time again, CANNING!!! Yep gotta love it, or maybe you don't either way I just finished a day of it. Its been awhile, I forgot how sore you get I'm feeling muscles in places I didn't even know I had muscles in. I'm either really out of shape or car lighting really takes it out of you either way I'm feeling the after affects. You know despite how much I say I dislike canning it always seems to call me back, Its like fattening food you hate it you try and stay away from it but you always seem to end up eating it. Anyway I have another morning of it tomorrow so wish me luck and shoot up some desperate prayers for us, until next time.

I am a sinner!

I feel like I have cheated on this blog, after posting a whole thing about the evil things that are stealing the good bloggers I have made a..... get ready for it..... face book account. Don't worry I can explain why I have done this evil deed, the thing is someone had posted pictures on their face book account that I wanted to see but I couldn't go on unless I had an account. So I guiltily made one, but fear not I will try my darnedest to not get sucked into its evil tentacles I will stay true to this blog. I hope.

Pioneering!

Living in a pioneer home is challenging to put it in nice pretty flowery words or word. In moving here I knew I was going to be moving to a pioneer situation but having lived the last six years in a pioneer situation I figured I'd be just fine. I figured I had pasted that grade and I could do it again no problem maybe it would even be fun this time around. Oh boy was I ever wrong, I don't care what anyone else says no matter how many times you've pioneered and started out a home it never gets any easier. You could do it a hundred times but no matter what if you did it again it would still be hard. Pioneering is just plain nitty gritty in your face peddle to the metal sweaty grueling hard work, but you know what else its worth it. Because for every cloud that blocks the sun there is a silver lining, and for every tunnel that you struggle through there is always a light at the end. Pioneering may be work but the pay off is sweet, and in the end the endless hours you put into the home will come back to you in the form of a smooth running bonded home and winning team with goals, vision, and a flock to show for it.
( I'm really hoping this is one of those times where I'm super right on, Grin.)

And on the seventh day....

...He rested. Oh yes, I am finishing my day of rest for the week and it was sweet. It has been like three weeks since I had a full day off, it felt like longer though. Rest is sweet, and doing nothing is just the way to go after a long long week. You should all follow my good example and do like wise, its biblical you know.

Showers!

I tell you there is nothing that beats a nice hot shower after a long days work. You just stand there and the water washes all over you and just relaxes all the sore and painful parts of your body. After a long day you just stand there and its like the water is washing away everything that went wrong and all you have to do is take a deep breath and let go of all the annoyances and hurts of the day and let the water wash them down the drain. Showers are god's way of apologizing for making dirt! Grin.

Lined Paper

I really like lined paper, I don't know why there is just something about a nice clean white piece of lined paper, add a brand new sharpened pencil and you got me, Grin. Maybe its because its so organized and clean so straight and asymmetrical, but yeah every time I see a piece of lined paper it makes me happy. Just thought I'd share this Tid Bit of information with you, so that you can feel just a little bit closer to me.

Shyness.

Believe it or not I used to be a really shy person, crowds frightened me, I would get tongue tied every time someone I didn't know walked in the room, and carrying on a conversation with someone new was like getting a tooth pulled. But for some reason I just stopped I don't know if it was any specific thing or it was just me growing up, I now have no problem conversing with people I have never met nor know very well. Mind you I'm not a very loud talkative person so although I may not be very shy I am still not a real conversationalist. I just thought I would share this little testimony for all those who battle with shyness, get out of yourself most people could care less about what you mess up on so just have fun and don't worry about what other people think. After a little bit of effort to get out of yourself most of the times you'll find the shyness kind of wears off and you begin to enjoy yourself more. So smile, laugh, have fun, get out there and just forget they are other people.

I'm Back!

Yep Yep, I'm back, just got back last night it's been a long time. I love that feeling of coming home and finding everything exactly as you left it as if you haven't been gone a minute. Besides being probable twenty pounds heavier the road trip was a lot of fun and I'd do it again tomorrow. Anyway I don't have any pictures and there is just to many stories to tell, so I'll just say all's well that ends well and bid you a due.

Still on the road!

Well I've been on the road for about a week now, its been a nice break. Been sleeping in all sorts of different places, meeting people, eating A LOT, and just overall having a great road trip. Last night we went to a Chinese buffet and I was able to talk to one of the waitress there in Chinese sad to say I had forgotten most if not all of my Chinese which sucks. I need to find a way to practice it, I worked so hard for it it'd be a shame to lose it. Anyway I'll be home soon so all my home members can rejoice I'll be back to manage and schedule your lives away. Ya Ha Ha!!! ( This is meant to be an evil cackle by the by.)

Hard Times!

Some of the hardest times in your life bring out the most beautiful things, the times you fall the hardest are the times you rise the most. The saddest tears you cry bring out the most beautiful smiles, the more your heart breaks the more it heals.


Sometimes the cloudier your eyes get the clearer you see things, the times when we are weakest are the times when we are the strongest. Times when we are flat on our back with out an ounce of strength left are the times that teach us the most.

The more problems we have the more solutions we find, the harder the battle greater the victory. The more of us that dies the more space the lord has to fill with him, the greater the breaking the better the remaking. Battles are here to help us and make us better, never loathe the hard times though they may try you to your limit its from these times that we lose the most that we gain the most. From the ashes of ourselves is born a new and better person.

The Tapestry!

I had a dream last night, I walked into a room and there was a man sitting there weaving on a large old fashioned loom. He was just starting to weave a new tapestry and I sat down to watch he began with colors that I thought were beautiful they complimented each other I approved of the choices he was making. Then he started adding other colors, colors I thought were ugly or just didn't go with the color palette. I questioned his choice and pointed out what I thought would be a better choice, the weaver while continuing to weave just told me to wait and see. I sat there fuming in my mind wondering what kind of fool would pick the colors this weaver had picked. The weaver continued his dexterous hands moving about with skill and grace, finally he was done and stood back to admire his work. I looked at it expecting to see a tapestry ruined by a poor choice of colors, but when I looked at it I nearly cried all of the colors worked together they blended and moved and told a story with every change of hue. It was truly magnificent and I realized if he had left the colors I had not wanted out it would not have been half as beautiful. Then the weaver looked at me and I could see that this was no ordinary weaver this was my love. He looked into my eyes and spoke saying " My child this is the tapestry of your life, sometimes I weave things into your life that you like and think go well together and other times I weave things in that you don't like and you feel mess with your plan. But as you can see in the end its more beautiful than if I had done it your way. So my love trust me for the things in your life despite what you may feel for in the end your life will be a tapestry of glory for me."
Than he took me in his arms and kissed away the tears that streamed down my face, tears of shame that I had ever questioned his plan, that I had ever questioned his wisdom, that I had ever questioned his love. He looked into my eyes and in that moment I knew that as long as he was weaving the plan of my life I had nothing to fear.

Bye-Bye

She came, we partied, she left and now we will miss her!
Love you Angie, it was great getting to know you. I will miss all the senseless giggling at nothing and the good times. Come back some day, we'll go out and dance on table tops and get free margaritas. Take care of yourself and don't let anyone make you feel anything less than you are. Have fun in your new home! Smooches and hugs!!!!

So many thoughts!

Sometimes I wish there were a pause button that you could press that would still the every constant thoughts that buzz through your head.I wish I could just press it and find release from the mirage of details that fly through my mind on a regular bases. Being the practical person that I am I can never really truly enjoy the moment cause I'm constantly thinking about the consequences or how long it will last, or what needs to happen next. But if this magical pause button did exist I could just pause those thoughts and enjoy the moment and than when I need to think again I could turn it back on and return to earth. Someday some really smart handsome person will invent this, and than they will get rich and famous and live in a mansion with gold toilet seats and I will come to them and thank them profusely and than we will get married and live happily ever after. ( Yes this is my fantasy, and gold toilet seats is a big part of it.)

On the road again!

Yep yep, I have once again heard the call of the road and followed. I am gone on a week long road trip with Paul and Carmen, I'm excited it been awhile since I've been out of the house so it will be nice to get a break. Pray for us that all goes well and that our fundraising and follow-up is fruitful!

Love is giving someone the chance to break your heart but trusting that they wont.

Is it done yet.

I have been having the longest week in the history of the world, and its still not over. Don't ask me how this is possible I've been told that time moves at the same passe no matter what but I swear to god someone pushed the slow mo button on this week. I'm closing my eyes just tell me when its over....

Akeyna Raven

Here is the little Pink Squishy thing commonly called my new niece, she is so cute!!! I'm in lvoe already, Damn babies every time I see them I'm like " oh I want one". Why do they have to be so adorable and small?
Any way keep my sis in your prayers, shes still suffering from high blood pressure. Love you tans!

Totally Mushy Post!

Someday ( and I hope this is sooner rather than later) I want to love someone so completely and totally, I want to love despite the possibility of hurt, I want to look into there eyes and in that look be able to feel complete. I want to put myself out there and in the end gain the other persons love, I want to find a love that cannot be chalked up to infatuation. I want to let myself go and enjoy the ride of a relationship wherever it may take me. Someday, I will, for now I will content myself to being single.

Yo-Yo!

I feel like I'm on the Yo-Yo string of emotions, I have been going up and down and all around and its making me sick. I just want it to stop I want to just be at peace to calm my whirlwind of thoughts and just relax breath in and out. One day I feel on top of the world, the next I feel like I
I'm in the deepest darkest pit, I hate this!

Pics from CHEA!

Pics from the 4th!

Falling apart one piece at a time!

My Jaw is killing me right now I woke up the other day with it and it seems to be getting worse I haven't eaten solids in two days and its hurts to talk or even smile. Please pray for it to go away whatever it is and that it will be soon.
For now I will praise the lord for all the weight I will be losing from not eating, PTL!!

Its a Girl!

My sister just had her baby I am so happy, Its a girl and from what I've heard its healthy and without deformities. I don't have any pictures but when I do I will post them for your viewing pleasure! But for now just rejoice with me, Tania and Devon congrats you'll be great parents I'm sure, love you both!!!

Blogging old news?

It is sad that new things like twitter, face book, and all sorts of other nonsense is taking over the blogging world all of the best blogs are closing due to the new face book craze. But fear not my blog readers I shall not desert you I shall remain faithful until the bitter end. Which I'm sure there will be do to the alarming rate of blogs that are dying out, why do things have to change? Why do we feel the need to abandon a perfectly good form of commuicating? Stay with me dear fellow bloggers we must keep the blogging circle alive!

CHEA!

I'm Back in Cali for a weekend of seminaring, other wise known as attending CHEA. I made it through the first day despite being dead tired ( I had insomnia the night before and only slept for about an hour) I enjoyed it. The only downside to attending seminars like this is that there is just so much imput that you end up not really being able to absorb it all and on top of that you feel like a totally faliure as far as homeschoolers go. Its like being caught in a spot light stark naked in the middle of a full stadium. But its all good I will walk away from this better for it, I have a hunch.

Weekend!!!

I just got back from San Diego where I went to visit my older brother for the 4th of July weekend, and can I just say I truly miss living in the states where I can walk out my door and actually understand what the heck everyone is saying. But you know PTL, I had fun we had a nice BBQ right by the pool and it was actually hot enough to want to swim which is a definet plus. It was a nice family get together, best of all my mom is coming down here next week which makes me jump for joy, I almost can't wait!!! ( Yes, I am a mommies girl, and I'm not ashamed of it.)

Anyway I'll try and commandeir the pictures from Prom's cammara so you can see me in all my ugly glory.

Another birthday post!

Happy Birthday Sis!!!! I love you, hope you have an amazing year and that everything works out for you. I miss you and the little bunchins, your in my prayers make sure the little guys don't forget me. Love and prayers, Smoooch!!!

Fruit Picking!

Yesterday was the singles WNR so we went out to this ranch to pick some fruit, it was kinda like the garden of Eden minus the nakedness and anything besides the fruit. I was expecting something far worse from the stories I heard it sounded like a desert with knee high thorn bushes and dirty ugly mangy guard dogs, mixed in with piles of old metal and junk, and snakes every where, but it was quite nice in a rustic way with tons of fruit trees with this wonderful lushes fruit hanging on the branches. Well since I'm not very good at describing I will post pictures.

The happy fruit pickers, excuse the ugly one in the middle she likes to stick her head into pictures every so often just to ruin them.




See what I'm saying about luscious fruit.



And beautiful landscape.