Merry Christmas!

Well its finally here, and I am thankful that it is here for yet another year. Last night we watched white christmas, drank eggnog, and opened presents. I am happy I'm here with family and friends, Its been a busy few weeks but now its time to sit back and enjoy some Holiday Cheer! I hope you all have a great Christmas and a very Happy New Year!

Christmas!

It's December the season of good cheer, warmth, well wishing, and happiness all around. But I didn't feel much like celebrating, I was home sick ( it being my first Christmas away from my parents), we are struggling a lot and so it was a definite no present year, and due to us moving we couldn't even decorate. Suffice it to say I was more than a little Scroogeish, I didn't feel like it could really be Christmas if we couldn't even have a tree or decorations. I read all the christmas stories I could get my hands on, I listened to christmas music 24 7 trying to get myself in the spirit of the season but I just didn't feel it. Than I sought the only one who truly has the answers, I poured out my heart and all the pain I was feeling. I explained how hard this past year had been for me and at the time when I felt like I should be happy and joyful and having fun I wasn't. I told him how much I missed my family and how much I just wanted to feel like christmas again. Than I heard a small voice in my head and I fell silent listening to the one who I owe everything in this world to. He didn't say anything profound or rebuke me for being so "out" of it he simple asked me a question " What is Christmas to you?". At first I began to name all the things that you do at Christmas but I stopped those were not Christmas, Sure they are fun and great ways to celebrate but they are not Christmas. I stopped and thought for a few moments and than I realized Christmas was his birthday it was the time of year to stop thinking about yourself and instead think about others and give him gifts on his day. I had been so busy focusing on the baubles and trinkets of Christmas that I had forgotten what it was really all about. Present, decorations, even family these things do not make or break Christmas. I'm happy to say I now have the Christmas spirit in full force and it didn't come through all the commercial things but through taking my eyes off myself and looking at one that really is Christmas and should be the only reason we celebrate this holiday. So Happy Birthday to you my love, and Merry Christmas one and all!

P.S. I also wanted to add here just to show you how wonderful he really is he did a miracle and made it possible for me to go up and spend Christmas with my family in NY because that's just the way he rolls!!!

Busyiness!

Well I've been a busy girl, between ballooning, kids, cleaning, cooking and a host of other things. But I am happy I have a lot on my mind but I'm happy sometimes life is like that though its complicated but the complication is good so it makes you happy. Anyway so I got some good news the other day I now have a very good home to move to which takes a lot of stress out of my life. I'm going to stay with my brother till after C'mas so I get sometime to breath and be with family which is very nice. So I'm jsut bust and happy and that's about all that happening in my life. I'm so excited I'm going to have a group to teach again soon, I love teaching ( just in case you guys didn't know that yet).

My life in texas so far...

Well its been officially one week since I arrived in Austin its been great being back with family, its an invigorating and freeing feeling to be back with people who have seen you at your worst and love you regardless. I missed all of the ones here so much and being back with them has been so much fun. I have been facing amajor decision this past week one that has caused me to get very desperate with the lord, there's nothing like a life altering decision to cause you to do some deep soul searching and really looking at your life. I have made a decision about this thing and despite it probable being one of the hardest things I've had to do in my short adult life I have put it in the lords hand and am leaning fully on him. I stepped out on a limb and sawed it off and now I'm free falling. But with it all I am overwhelmed by an overcoming feeling of being loved and cared for and I know without a shadow of a doubt that Jesus is here with me. I wouldn't trade that feeling for anything in the world, My life is completely in the lords hands whatever happens next is completely his choice. But despite basically having no control over what comes next I have never felt this much peace in my heart about anything. Faith and trust are what I will be taking away from this and for nothing else than that I am truly grateful.

On to Texas!

I fly to Austin today wish me luck in all my travels and suchlike I'll post once I get there.

Goodbye Mexico!

Its my last night in Ensenada, and despite it all I will miss it here its a nice little city with beautiful people and it holds some good memories. I will miss my home members, it was a fun six months.
But all's well that ends well and I'm off to another place and another adventure, So adios Ba ha and Hello Texas!

If life came with a guide, if we could see where each turn in our life would take us would we ever do anything?
If we could open our " Life for Dummies" book and see oh this decision will result in this we would always decide against things. Because lets face it almost every decision we make ends up in something unexpected something we didn't plan on. And most of the time along that journey of the decision we made we hit snags, setbacks, and sometimes we even get hurt. If we could peer around the corner and see what was coming up ahead we would constantly be changing directions in search of one we like.
But the beauty of life is not having that guide, its not being able to see whats around the bend. Its learning through experience that snags can be ironed out, setbacks can be overcome, and hurts do mend. Life is a journey it takes time, It has its ups and its downs. We would love for it to always be wonderful but most of the time it isn't but its during the times when things are not wonderful that we learn the most valuable lessons.
So pace yourself enjoy the journey of life rather than sprinting through it as if it were a race. Savor the good times, cherish the ruff times, and never forget the ones you love for they will be there with you through both.

Its come back!

My love, My darling, yes the one I always rely on ( except of course for the lord) has come back to me. It was a long time apart but when it came back to me it was as if we had never been separated I caressed your shiny top and slid my hands over your smooth keys and than my finger went to the power button and you started up I couldn't help but jump for joy. Yes, I know I am weird but I am also over joyed to have my laptop back once again it was a headache trying to get it fixed but now that it is I am overcome with appreciation and love for it.
Now I'll stop gushing over a machine and let you know that I did my fist official night of ballooning and I'm proud to say it went fairly well. I didn't pop any balloons, my balloons did not turn out looking to retarded, and financially it wasn't too bad so all in all I am pretty satisfied. I go again today so please continue to pray for miracles of supply that I can make what I need for my move.

My little loves!

The lord has asked me to give these guys up for a little while, its probable the hardest thing I've had to do so far. I love them so much, I've taken care of them for about four years they have become like my own. I look at them and I see what beautiful kids they've become, I see the baby they were and how they've grown. I see the things they've learned and my heart can't help but ache at the thought of not seeing them anymore, not waking up and saying good morning to them. Not picking them up when they cry and wipe their tears away, not being able to be there on they're bithday and see them laugh and grow and change. But I know that the lord knows best and I am thankful for the many years the lord gave me with them and the times we had together.

My little buggies, I'm going to miss you guys so much!!! Don't forget me and make sure to write me and tell me of all your little happenings I love you guys more than a fat kids loves cake!!! Stay sweet, kisses and hugs!!!!

My life...

I am officially heading up to austin next month on the seventeenth, it scares me to think of moving out on my own but at the same times its exciting cause I know its for the best.

So much has happened to me in the last six months I feel as though I've lived the events of my whole life in this short amount of time. Its been a tough time but its been a growing time, a time of trials and battles but a time of growth and learning. The lord has pulled out all the things in my life that I was holding on to and I found that the only thing I really need is him. I am walking away from the situation I have been in with lessons learned and knowledge gained. I may not ever look back at this time as my happiest time but I will look back on it knowing all that I gained alot from it. I met some very wonderful people and if for no other reason than walking away from this with the friends I have gained it was worth it.

So here's to changes and the excitement and growth they always bring! Here's to good friends who you can carry with you no matter where you end up! Here's to life, the good and the bad times!

Sexiness!

Have you ever watched something when you were younger and thought the actor was so good looking but than you watched a few years later and were disappointed that the person you were magooglising was really not that great looking?
Well when I was younger we watched this series called Dr. Quin and in the there is a man called Sully when I was younger I thought this guy was just the hottest thing since sliced bread he was rugged handsome outdoorsy but at the same sensitive caring and he cleaned up well. Recently I found this series again and found much to my surprise that this sully character was just as hot as ever. It made me happy and I thought I'd share he's beauty with you so you can all revel in it with me and if you ever wanna watcha good series get Dr. Quin its great. Its like a little house on the parie but for adults, love it!!!

My buggies are leaving me!

In about a two week span of time my little buggies are leaving me I feel like a part of me is going to go with them. I love the little munchkins so much they've practically become my own, I've been teaching them for about six years now so its going to be weird with out them. But the lord knows I'm sure he'll bring some other little rascals for me to take care of. Sniffle sob, I'm going to miss them so much though!!!

Craziness!

So life has been pretty crazy, with changes and everything looming ahead I have been under intense amount of stress. But I realized that despite it all when it comes down to it at the end of the day that the outcome is the same whether I spent five hours or five minutes stressing about where I'm going, how I'm going to get there, if I'm making the right choice, etc.
Anyway so I'm not exactly sure where I will end up but its going to be some where and I will be doing something I know these things for sure. Pray that fund raising goes well and that when I get a chance to do some fund raising I can make the money I need to get where I'm going to go wherever that may be in the end.
In other news one of the homes in the area is hosting a Halloween party this weekend so I'm pretty happy I have never been to a adult Halloween party so this should be fun! I am very much dreading dressing up I may be a real bum and not dress up but we'll see how the mood strikes me.
I miss everyone from FDTP like a heck of alot, I still feel werid when I walk in the room in the morning and don't automatically get about twenty hugs but PTL! I'll go back to normal someday I'm sure, well thats all for now love and prayers are with you.

Great song!

This song reminds me of the FDTP every time I hear it I get nostalgic!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB7T3lJ3dZ4

Its done!

Well the FDTP ended about a week and half ago but I stayed in Texas visiting my family so I'm officially home now. FDTP was just amazing truly life changing the classes were powerful, the teachers were amazing, and I miss all the attendess like crazy they were a wonderful bunch of people!
Now I'm back and facing some major decisions, my home is closing so I'm on the look out for a home now. Its kinda scary, but at the same time I know the lord has a plan so it excites me to see where he will lead me.
Send some really powerful prayers upwards that I can raise the funds I need and that I can find the right home to join. Love and smooches!!!

Flying all alone!

Tomorrow I fly out to Texas for the FDTP, and for only the second time in my life I am doing it all on my own. Don't ask me why but flying makes me nervous even when I'm with someone else but when I'm not it makes me even more nervous. I think its because I've watched to many documentaries on planes and plane crashes it just freaks me out. Anyway so yeah I face my fears tomorrow and I fly, wish me luck and keep me in your prayers! Hopefully I won't get a panic attack or anything, :)!

FDTP!

Due to many miracles, prayers, petitions, and some wonderful loving giving people I have been enabled to attend FDTP! I am so excited I will have have and relax and retank on the word and do all those other nice things. I won't be on for a while so don't go and miss me too much, Love and prayers are with you all and I will up date post pics and all those wonderful things as soon as I get back! Wish me luck!

That training course..

Due to my wonderful home voting me into the humble position of manager I have had the privilige of going through the HMTP course and its been wonderful. Its full of wonderful insights and imformation that is helping me to become a better manager and people person. All hail those who put it together its amazing, and a big thanks to peter for recording the audios. I always look forward to my managing devotions its great to sit down and listen to peters soothing voice telling me all manner of good things, I affectionatly call it my time with peter. and thats all I have to say about that.

The latest and greatest!

Well here I am with up dates of my life, I have been a busy little home member busing around and filling in the slots needed to be filled.
Some of the parents went last week to the PMA graduation in vegas so I stayed home and subsitute parented for them. I believe I have found a cure to those femnine urges girls get when they see a baby. I have dubbed it "rent-a-baby" its a service where when a couple or single is thinking of having a baby they rent a baby for a week or so. Believe me at the end of that week if you still want a child than you are meant to be parents and if not well lets just say its probable also the solution to over population. It's pure genious I tell you!
Anyway yes it was a long week, and than came the day I wait for all week WNR and I spent the whole entire day doing nothing but lying in bed sleeping, reading, and eating. It was a well deserved break and I enjoyed it immensly, its been to long since I had one of those days considering the last few WNR's have been filled with moving rooms, cleaning said rooms, and going out with friends.
Oh and my excitement for the month is that do to the love and giving spirit of my felow home members and others I am going to be able to attend the FDTP this month. I am thrilled beyond words, I am also going to spend a week at my brothers home visting all my family who I haven't see in a while! All in all I am a very happy girl!!!
Another thing that is making me very happy is that a smart and very giving person is attempting to fix my way-ward computer for me. I am deeply indepted to him, ( thank you Nick)!
Right now my life is pretty swell I'll let you know if theres any change, love and prayers coming your way!

Were all going to heaven....

( I woke up this morning to Zara urgently calling my name and telling me she has something important to tell me here is what in sued I couldn't stop laughing so I thought I should post it:)
Zara: TIFFANY!!!!
Me: Yes Zara, what is it?
Zara: Did you know that we are all going to heaven.
Me: Yes I know if we ask Jesus in our heart than we can go to heaven.
Zara: Yes and we are going to fly all the way to the sun because that's where god is.
Me: How do you know god is in the sun?
Zara: Because god is like the sun.
Me chuckling: Oh so because god is like the sun the sun is god.
Zara: Yes, and did you know when we go to heaven we are going to leave our ugly clothes behind and god is going to give us a pretty party dress and than we are going to have a big tea party with Jesus cause he likes to be with girls.
Me laughing: Oh he does, and who will be at this tea party?
Zara: Oh everyone, me and Brooke and Carla and Ella and all our friends and maybe even the boys if they want to be with girls.
Me: And what will the boys who don't want to be with girls do?
Zara: Well they will have a boy party with god cause he dosen't like to be with girls.
Me laughing hysterically: How do you know that?
Zara: Because he told me.
I couldn't stop laughing after that, she was in such ernest as if she was sharing the secrets of the world, gotta love them kids!