Merry Christmas!

Well its finally here, and I am thankful that it is here for yet another year. Last night we watched white christmas, drank eggnog, and opened presents. I am happy I'm here with family and friends, Its been a busy few weeks but now its time to sit back and enjoy some Holiday Cheer! I hope you all have a great Christmas and a very Happy New Year!

Christmas!

It's December the season of good cheer, warmth, well wishing, and happiness all around. But I didn't feel much like celebrating, I was home sick ( it being my first Christmas away from my parents), we are struggling a lot and so it was a definite no present year, and due to us moving we couldn't even decorate. Suffice it to say I was more than a little Scroogeish, I didn't feel like it could really be Christmas if we couldn't even have a tree or decorations. I read all the christmas stories I could get my hands on, I listened to christmas music 24 7 trying to get myself in the spirit of the season but I just didn't feel it. Than I sought the only one who truly has the answers, I poured out my heart and all the pain I was feeling. I explained how hard this past year had been for me and at the time when I felt like I should be happy and joyful and having fun I wasn't. I told him how much I missed my family and how much I just wanted to feel like christmas again. Than I heard a small voice in my head and I fell silent listening to the one who I owe everything in this world to. He didn't say anything profound or rebuke me for being so "out" of it he simple asked me a question " What is Christmas to you?". At first I began to name all the things that you do at Christmas but I stopped those were not Christmas, Sure they are fun and great ways to celebrate but they are not Christmas. I stopped and thought for a few moments and than I realized Christmas was his birthday it was the time of year to stop thinking about yourself and instead think about others and give him gifts on his day. I had been so busy focusing on the baubles and trinkets of Christmas that I had forgotten what it was really all about. Present, decorations, even family these things do not make or break Christmas. I'm happy to say I now have the Christmas spirit in full force and it didn't come through all the commercial things but through taking my eyes off myself and looking at one that really is Christmas and should be the only reason we celebrate this holiday. So Happy Birthday to you my love, and Merry Christmas one and all!

P.S. I also wanted to add here just to show you how wonderful he really is he did a miracle and made it possible for me to go up and spend Christmas with my family in NY because that's just the way he rolls!!!