On to Texas!

I fly to Austin today wish me luck in all my travels and suchlike I'll post once I get there.

Goodbye Mexico!

Its my last night in Ensenada, and despite it all I will miss it here its a nice little city with beautiful people and it holds some good memories. I will miss my home members, it was a fun six months.
But all's well that ends well and I'm off to another place and another adventure, So adios Ba ha and Hello Texas!

If life came with a guide, if we could see where each turn in our life would take us would we ever do anything?
If we could open our " Life for Dummies" book and see oh this decision will result in this we would always decide against things. Because lets face it almost every decision we make ends up in something unexpected something we didn't plan on. And most of the time along that journey of the decision we made we hit snags, setbacks, and sometimes we even get hurt. If we could peer around the corner and see what was coming up ahead we would constantly be changing directions in search of one we like.
But the beauty of life is not having that guide, its not being able to see whats around the bend. Its learning through experience that snags can be ironed out, setbacks can be overcome, and hurts do mend. Life is a journey it takes time, It has its ups and its downs. We would love for it to always be wonderful but most of the time it isn't but its during the times when things are not wonderful that we learn the most valuable lessons.
So pace yourself enjoy the journey of life rather than sprinting through it as if it were a race. Savor the good times, cherish the ruff times, and never forget the ones you love for they will be there with you through both.

Its come back!

My love, My darling, yes the one I always rely on ( except of course for the lord) has come back to me. It was a long time apart but when it came back to me it was as if we had never been separated I caressed your shiny top and slid my hands over your smooth keys and than my finger went to the power button and you started up I couldn't help but jump for joy. Yes, I know I am weird but I am also over joyed to have my laptop back once again it was a headache trying to get it fixed but now that it is I am overcome with appreciation and love for it.
Now I'll stop gushing over a machine and let you know that I did my fist official night of ballooning and I'm proud to say it went fairly well. I didn't pop any balloons, my balloons did not turn out looking to retarded, and financially it wasn't too bad so all in all I am pretty satisfied. I go again today so please continue to pray for miracles of supply that I can make what I need for my move.

My little loves!

The lord has asked me to give these guys up for a little while, its probable the hardest thing I've had to do so far. I love them so much, I've taken care of them for about four years they have become like my own. I look at them and I see what beautiful kids they've become, I see the baby they were and how they've grown. I see the things they've learned and my heart can't help but ache at the thought of not seeing them anymore, not waking up and saying good morning to them. Not picking them up when they cry and wipe their tears away, not being able to be there on they're bithday and see them laugh and grow and change. But I know that the lord knows best and I am thankful for the many years the lord gave me with them and the times we had together.

My little buggies, I'm going to miss you guys so much!!! Don't forget me and make sure to write me and tell me of all your little happenings I love you guys more than a fat kids loves cake!!! Stay sweet, kisses and hugs!!!!

My life...

I am officially heading up to austin next month on the seventeenth, it scares me to think of moving out on my own but at the same times its exciting cause I know its for the best.

So much has happened to me in the last six months I feel as though I've lived the events of my whole life in this short amount of time. Its been a tough time but its been a growing time, a time of trials and battles but a time of growth and learning. The lord has pulled out all the things in my life that I was holding on to and I found that the only thing I really need is him. I am walking away from the situation I have been in with lessons learned and knowledge gained. I may not ever look back at this time as my happiest time but I will look back on it knowing all that I gained alot from it. I met some very wonderful people and if for no other reason than walking away from this with the friends I have gained it was worth it.

So here's to changes and the excitement and growth they always bring! Here's to good friends who you can carry with you no matter where you end up! Here's to life, the good and the bad times!

Sexiness!

Have you ever watched something when you were younger and thought the actor was so good looking but than you watched a few years later and were disappointed that the person you were magooglising was really not that great looking?
Well when I was younger we watched this series called Dr. Quin and in the there is a man called Sully when I was younger I thought this guy was just the hottest thing since sliced bread he was rugged handsome outdoorsy but at the same sensitive caring and he cleaned up well. Recently I found this series again and found much to my surprise that this sully character was just as hot as ever. It made me happy and I thought I'd share he's beauty with you so you can all revel in it with me and if you ever wanna watcha good series get Dr. Quin its great. Its like a little house on the parie but for adults, love it!!!

My buggies are leaving me!

In about a two week span of time my little buggies are leaving me I feel like a part of me is going to go with them. I love the little munchkins so much they've practically become my own, I've been teaching them for about six years now so its going to be weird with out them. But the lord knows I'm sure he'll bring some other little rascals for me to take care of. Sniffle sob, I'm going to miss them so much though!!!

Craziness!

So life has been pretty crazy, with changes and everything looming ahead I have been under intense amount of stress. But I realized that despite it all when it comes down to it at the end of the day that the outcome is the same whether I spent five hours or five minutes stressing about where I'm going, how I'm going to get there, if I'm making the right choice, etc.
Anyway so I'm not exactly sure where I will end up but its going to be some where and I will be doing something I know these things for sure. Pray that fund raising goes well and that when I get a chance to do some fund raising I can make the money I need to get where I'm going to go wherever that may be in the end.
In other news one of the homes in the area is hosting a Halloween party this weekend so I'm pretty happy I have never been to a adult Halloween party so this should be fun! I am very much dreading dressing up I may be a real bum and not dress up but we'll see how the mood strikes me.
I miss everyone from FDTP like a heck of alot, I still feel werid when I walk in the room in the morning and don't automatically get about twenty hugs but PTL! I'll go back to normal someday I'm sure, well thats all for now love and prayers are with you.

Great song!

This song reminds me of the FDTP every time I hear it I get nostalgic!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB7T3lJ3dZ4

Its done!

Well the FDTP ended about a week and half ago but I stayed in Texas visiting my family so I'm officially home now. FDTP was just amazing truly life changing the classes were powerful, the teachers were amazing, and I miss all the attendess like crazy they were a wonderful bunch of people!
Now I'm back and facing some major decisions, my home is closing so I'm on the look out for a home now. Its kinda scary, but at the same time I know the lord has a plan so it excites me to see where he will lead me.
Send some really powerful prayers upwards that I can raise the funds I need and that I can find the right home to join. Love and smooches!!!

Flying all alone!

Tomorrow I fly out to Texas for the FDTP, and for only the second time in my life I am doing it all on my own. Don't ask me why but flying makes me nervous even when I'm with someone else but when I'm not it makes me even more nervous. I think its because I've watched to many documentaries on planes and plane crashes it just freaks me out. Anyway so yeah I face my fears tomorrow and I fly, wish me luck and keep me in your prayers! Hopefully I won't get a panic attack or anything, :)!