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Saturday, July 24, 2010

I dreamed a dream...

Last night I dreampt I was driving down a road at first the surroundings were familiar, I knew where I was going and I felt confident and in control. Than I started going faster the familiar surroundings turned unfamiliar and the feeling of confidence and control gave way to panic and fear. I tried hitting the brakes but found there were none, nothing but air was where my feet were I looked around for something to stop myself with and that's when I felt a presence like a warm whispering assurance it told me to relax that everything was going to be okay. I tried to relax but the feeling of fear of the unknown continued to plague me, than all of a sudden it stopped the feeling vanished and all I could feel was comfort and reassurance. I was still in a very unknown place I knew nothing of where I was, I was not in control of what was going on but a feeling of peace and calm enveloped me. I knew that I did not have to know where I was or be in charge cause something much greater and stronger was in control of my life.
Than I woke up I looked around me everything I grew up with everything I knew even the people I knew were gone. My life was that car traveling so fast and so far away from everything familiar and known. There are so many days that I feel panic because I am clueless I don't know where I am going or what is going to happen next and just like my dream life has no breaks. It doesn't pause for you or slow down and wait for you to catch up. It goes at the same break neck speed whether you like it or not, there is no stopping or going back in life it is forwards always forwards. But even after I woke up the presence was still there lingering and telling me it was going to be alright. And I knew despite the scariness of it all and the ever present worry that accompanies the unknown I was going to be alright.

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