Thoughts

I just wanna sit and cry but the tears just won't come. I just wanna feel but I'm numb. I'm in a world full of people but I feel so alone. I want to forget but all I can do is remember. I want to be happy but the sadness just won't go away. I want to curl up in bed and forget the world, but the world just won't forget me. I want to feel soft but pain has hardened me. I want to look at the world and see beauty but all I can see is misery and despair. I want to make life all that it can be but life is what it is and you can't change it. I want to believe but steadily I am losing even that!